I Finally Graduated!

Alhamdulillah, last week I have officially graduated from UIN Syarif Hidayatullah Jakarta after 7 years of struggling with anxieties and kept questioning myself whether I should continue the study or just drop out. I'm so relieved and thankful that I was able to win those negative thoughts and graduate properly although it is late compared to normal students. With the help and support from my family and friends, I was able to push myself and believe in myself.

To be completely honest, I never expect that day would come since I thought I might not gonna make it to graduation. And there were so many obstacles along the way, it was almost impossible to register for graduation ceremony due to some financial problems and some errors from the college itself, so when that day finally approached me, I was like, is it happen for real? Am I really going to MY graduation ceremony?

Well, I couldn't help but felt overjoyed and excited, even when some people said it's too late for me to celebrate (due to my 7 years of study), I still wanted to celebrate it. I couldn't hide my happiness no matter how much I wanted to stay cool and calm, I kept grinning and smiling throughout the graduation day. That's how grateful I was and I still am. And apparently, my parents were just as excited as I did, I could see so much happiness in my mother's eyes, she's been angry a lot with me and said she doesn't care anymore about my graduation, but when the day finally came, she showed me how much she's proud and relieved that one of her children has managed to graduate college again. I'm so sorry for making you wait this long, mom, thank you for never give up on me (although you said you gave up, you never really did and always showered me with your love, I'm beyond grateful)...

Another chapter in the book has finished. It's time to write a new one. I know what I want to do, I know what my dream is, and I wish I could make it happen. Everything will come at the right time, and all I need to do is pray and work hard for it. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah, I can never expressed how much I'm thankful for all the miracles You have given to my life. I'm not yet a good Muslimah and yet You never stopped showing me Your Mercy. I wish I could be someone who is beneficial for my surroundings and help them for Allah SWT sake. And thank you again to my family and friends who never give up on me no matter how messed up I was. You have no idea how much your help means to me. Once again, I'm beyond grateful. Alhamdulillah.

2017 in Review

2017 ended in a blink of an eye. At least for me. Oh well, I was sleeping during the new year's eve and when I woke up, all the fireworks and new year's hype has been long gone 😂 2017 was ordinary, I wasn't sure what to feel about it. The thing that I realized is I'm getting bored with my life and I don't feel excited about anything anymore, which really is sad because I felt empty. When you felt this much emptiness, you began to lose yourself. Even so, there were quite big moments that made my long boring life became a little less boring too and I'd like to write about them here.

Maximphonia and National Folklore Festival 2017

Some of PSM UIN Jakarta Alumni decided to form an independent choir and we named it Maximphonia. We formed Maximphonia for those who are no longer able to join PSM UIN rehearsal due to their busy schedules at work and only have free time during weekends. So, the members who joined are those who have been absent from choir for a long time, which means we have to start from scratch and learn how to sing choir from the beginning again. We also decided to join the National Folklore Festival 2017 at the Faculty of Economy at the University of Indonesia in March and I was assigned as treasurer. We ranked 6th out of 18 choirs which are great since we actually prepared this competition by ourselves without a professional coach or professional arranger. We truly joined the competition to bring back all the good feelings about singing in the choir and I dare to say we accomplished our goals. We truly had fun throughout the process and we never felt that relaxed during the competition before ❤

I Passed My Undergraduate Thesis Defense

Well, after 7 years (yes, you read it correctly, 7 YEARS!) of college, I finally did my Undergraduate Thesis Defense in July. It was quite a hectic day, my lecturer gave me the wrong schedule so I ended up late and we had to rush preparing the foods and everything. Luckily, my examiners were willing to wait and didn't show any sign of annoyance (special treatment for final year students I guess 😂). The thesis defense went for only 45 minutes on my part and I was able to give them satisfying answers and results despite the fact that I was super nervous. Well, how can't I? After such miscommunication with the schedule, I thought they would have canceled my thesis defense and change it to another day 😅 Thanks to such kind examiners, I was able to enjoy it and get a good grade for it. Some of my friends also came to support me although I only informed them about the defense that very morning to ask for prayers. Julian, Putri (who brought me a really huge flowers bouquet ❤), Wicak (who brought me flowers and support from Bayu who couldn't come), Aulia (who brought me my favorite Good Day coffee with Iqbal's support as well), and Mella (who also brought me Good Day coffee 😃). And of course Diah, Amel, Wardah, who helped me a lot during the process. They are the biggest part of this process and without them, I might have given up college a long time ago. Thank you!

Additional Singer for Bianglala Voices

It was not the first time for me to be an additional singer for Bianglala Voices, a vocal group of adult singers whose members are also my seniors in PSM UIN Jakarta and my choir coach, Bu Tanti, and Om Freddy. Bu Tanti always gives me chances to experience new things in musical fields and most of the jobs I got were all from her. I can never thank her enough for always believe in me and entrust me with such responsibility. That kind of support made me truly grateful and gave me courage because I often don't feel good about myself. 

What made this event special was because I was assigned to sing a solo part during Endah 'n Rhesa's song, When You Love Someone, during Bianglala Voices' performance at Earhouse Cafe. Earhouse is Endah and Rhesa's cafe and we got to sing in front of them. For someone like me, it was truly an amazing experience and an honor to sing that song in front of the artists themselves. Om Bintang, the one who leads the performance was a strict person but he entrusted me with this solo part to surprise Endah and Rhesa, and it was successful 😂 They really didn't expect us to perform that song for them because Om Bintang introduced it as a K-Pop song. My parents were also present at that moment and Om Bintang introduced me to the audience with such kind words and even thanked my parents for letting me join them even if it means I had to stay until midnight for rehearsal. I swear I love the look in my mother's eyes that night. I haven't seen those many stars in her since I won Writing Competition at National Championship in 2010. I can never thank Bianglala Voices enough for this experience ❤

Bandung and Padang Trip

I was able to visit many places in Indonesia this year (thanks to mudik as always) but two places that left a really special impression in me were Bandung and Padang. I visited Padang for the first time for my cousin's wedding and we had a chance to sightseeing although for only one day. The best thing about Padang is food. I swear they taste much much tastier than in Jakarta 😂 And even now as I'm writing this, I can't help but craving for more of Padang cuisines. I got to see Jam Gadang Tower and got permission to climb to the rooftop with my cousins too. My cousin's father has quite huge influence and role in Padang and I'm grateful to get that special privilege because.... well, it's not every day you get the chance to get to the rooftop of Jam Gadang Tower, right?! 😂

Bandung Trip was special because for the first time in forever, I was able to go on a vacation with my friends, Iqbal and Erna, without my parents or seniors or any study/organisation event. It was purely for vacation. It was only a 2 days trip but it was still memorable to me. We didn't go to any expensive places because we didn't have time (or money lol), but thankfully, Mr. Ridwan Kamil has designed every spot in Bandung into a beautiful place for Instagram. So, we were able to enjoy every place we visited and went home satisfied and re-charged (and craved for more Bandung 😁)

Hmm... Now that I think back to the past, this year wasn't so bad. My two best friends also got married and I took a big part in their wedding, we also had some nice little celebrations and were able to meet up way more often than before. Those were such good memories, so why do I still feel empty? Why do I feel like it was a boring year? When did it go down? Is it the fact that our family had troubles with building our new house? Is it the fact that I was unable to help much that I felt worthless? Is it a part of becoming an adult? I miss being a part of something. Maybe the reason I felt this much emptiness is because I stopped singing choir. I didn't fall in love with anybody either. And I've kinda lost connection with some of my precious people. So, to find my happiness, I need to find or create a place where I belong. But what is it? I don't even know what I'm looking for but I truly wish I would find that thing that I lost. 

2018.... Please treat me kindly ❤

Rant on Skripsi

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

I'm feel like writing something here, meski sebenarnya skripsi menunggu untuk dikerjakan, tapi entah kenapa selalu ada hal lain yg membuat gue tertarik melebihi ngerjain skripsi. I mean, I could have used my time to read a good book rather than sitting hours in front of my computer, reading something I completely don't like (journals, thesis, etc) and yes, I really am that uncool. I'm just suck at studying and when it comes to school stuffs, I usually failed. Not because I'm stupid (or maybe I am), but because my laziness is bigger than earth. I find it very hard to concentrate. Beda dengan melakukan hal lain yang memang gue suka, misalnya baca buku-bukunya Tereliye, baca partitur, baca postingan-postingan seru di internet yang insha Allah bukan a waste of time, dan baru-baru ini keasyikan bikin subtitle English buat video-video Nigahiga, lumayan bermanfaat buat melatih listening dan writing skills kan. See... it's not useless~ :p

I could spend hours surfing people's blogs to read their awesome knowledge and informations. Why can't skripsi be that interesting?

Iya sih, teori Barthes dan teori-teori skripsi lainnya itu juga ilmu, tapi bukan ilmu yang ingin gue geluti. I was just trying to find the easy way to finish skripsi by choosing such an easy theme for my thesis, but still, whenever I try to work on it, I got distracted by something else. As a result, I couldn't finish my thesis. Also, kayaknya gue punya masalah dengan lingkungan baru juga karena beberapa kali gue nge-skip kelas atau mata kuliah yang belum gue ambil dan terpaksa harus sekelas sama junior, tapi setiap kali mau masuk kelas, entah gimana ceritanya, kaki ini gak bisa bergerak masuk, padahal udah di depan pintu. All of sudden, my mind would be filled with so many terrifying images where all these new kids and juniors would scare me to death and judge me. I know it may sound exaggerating a little, but that's exactly what happened and that's one of the reasons why I failed my classes. Because I couldn't get into classes, because I was afraid, because I had such terrifying images, and that happened all the time.

So, who to blame? My weak soul? Kalau ada yang bilang kita bisa mengendalikan diri kita dan pikiran kita, well, that's not working for me because most of the time, I can't. See, I always try to be positive when something bad happened, but when it comes to paranoid and weird imaginations? I need more help on that. Why do you think I always refuse to sing solo, or be the front man, or be in the spotlight for too long. That's because the longer I'm in there, the images of people who are watching me get more and more terrifying. This may sound unreal but this is what actually happened inside my brain. See how messed up it is? And I know all of these problems may sound silly and stupid for normal people out there who don't have issues with their mind, but it becomes a big problem for me.

I got easily distracted, like right now when I'm supposed to work on my thesis, I write a rant on a blog instead. Or when I have to go to library to find some journals for my thesis, I always got distracted by other more interesting places. But yeah, I can handle it as long as I have strong will to fight all those distractions. Tapi, ketika sudah berhubungan dengan bayangan-bayangan mengerikan yang ada di kepala gue, most of the time, I failed to win against them. I only have one savior for this issue: Caffein

Yeah, caffein helped me through all of these issues (except the paranoid ones). At least, it makes my brain focus and more hyper so I can finish everything in one go. Hey, don't forget that I finished my first skripsi chapter in one night, and it got accepted right away by my lecturer. So, thanks coffee. I need more of those magic in my life.

Anyway... I think this post is getting more random and I should stop writing now before I'm getting more out of topic. I don't even know if this post has a good point or not.. well, I think it's just a rant so why expect a good point. Just.... just wish me luck okay.

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

All Thoughts Packed in One Post

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

A friendly reminder that you will waste 3 minutes of your life if you're reading this lame post. Before you continue, I suggest you to open a new tab and open a better web to read.

Do you still want to continue?

Well, I've warned you.

The last time I wrote here was two months ago?! Wow, never thought that I would leave blog for that long, but now here I am again, in need for a place to let out my feelings, anxieties, troubles, etc.. LOL. Some things never change, aren't they?

I'm currently at the end of my college life, and I've never felt so stressed about it, simply because I'm always drawn to do the things that I love instead of what I must do. I'd rather do my job as cantora in PSM and take care of those singing lessons, events, projects, etc, instead of doing my thesis. Seeing my friends graduated one by one really makes me happy, but terrified at the same time. I had issue with overthinking and I can't help but think that I might would never have a chance to graduate as long as I'm still doing the things I love, rather than what I must do. These thoughts keep bugging me, that's why my insomnia is getting worse, because all of those terrifying thoughts seemed to come to the surface of my mind when I'm alone. It's sucks to be someone who can only focus on the things she loves.

Maybe I'm just really a sucker for things like thesis and school stuffs like this. :-(

On a brighter note, I'm quite relieved that my job as cantora in PSM will be over this month. It means, I would finally be able to concentrate on my thesis. I'm having a lot of fun doing my job for two years in Artistic Department, and honestly, I think if I were asked to continue doing it, I will still agree to do it because I understand more and more about my job and artistic and finally know what I want to do in it. Two years are not enough to build a strong artistic department, I think, especially when you began to understand what your job description is, and what you want to build and improve, you just want to continue doing it, and especially when you already feel so comfortable in it... But like the famous quotes said, nothing lasts forever. I know I have to put an end for myself and let the new generation replace me. I need to entrust my dreams and job to them and give them chance to learn, and especially let them feel the excitement of being in Artistic. It's always good when you're working for arts and that's why my thesis is always number 2, or maybe even 5 in my to-do-list lol. I'm not quite sure if I regretted it or not for being this way, but I know I'm happy for being able to do my best for the organization that I love.

I don't know where my life is going to take me from now, honestly, I never really imagined my life without PSM, and I never imagined that I would be at this point of college. I know I should be the one who decide where I must going from now, decide things for myself, and create my future. But honestly, I'm just not that kind of cool person who has the guts to dream big or have their future set in their mind. All I know is I need to graduate this year and continue doing the arts. I need to find a way to go to Japan somehow, and I still need to find a way to buy a new camera. 

Wow, this post is so lame and has no good closure. Sorry that you have wasted your time reading it lol. I've warned you, though :p

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Kuliah Kerja Nyata

KKN is one of the greatest chapters in my life that I would cherish the most. I never expected that I would have such a deep bond with certain people from that place. How would I know? I wasn't really excited about KKN back then, barely came to the group meeting, I wanted to stay home so badly instead of spending 30 days in another faraway village. Anyway, people changed. Experience also changes my perspective and opinion about KKN. Now if anyone ever asked me about KKN, I would tell them to take it and enjoy it. You would create great memories as well 💗

So, whom did you think had a special bond with me? KKN Ganks? Hmm... no. They're nice and awesome, but what I mean here are the kids from Belimbing Village. And when I said special, I really mean it. Let's get to know them 😁

1. TINO 

He's in 5th grade and he has Liver disease, but unexpectedly he's super hyperactive. He has great energy and he loves to tickle everyone around him. He never gets tired, he could chase me only to tickle me for like an hour and he wouldn't stop until he gets his target. Naughty... naughty boy 😆 This cheerful kid can get along with most people. He likes to pull pranks on others too, and he usually succeeds. He's also very smart, like one of the most lovable kids I have ever met. Tino loves playing chess, that explained why he's so smart 😁

2. RICO

Rico is supposed to be in 5th grade, but he's still remained in 2nd grade. As far as I know, he can only read the word "Ibu" and "Ayah". He can do a bit of math, he can do addition quite well, but he can't do subtraction or even multiplication. Rico can't be hurt nor get hurt because he has epilepsy. We can't surprise him too hard or he will faint literally. Rico is very courageous to learn something. He's has a little bit of autism; if you tell him something, he will do it right away. Like when I told him to come to my homestay at 7 am, he really comes. When I promised him something, he will remember it and he will keep asking me to complete my promise to him 😁

3. STEPHEN

Stephen, such a cool name, tho all of his friends called him without the 'S', haha. Stephen is one of the most lovable kids too. He's naughtier than Tino. Stephen loves to pull pranks on others, and he's like a troublemaker, but in a cute way 😋 Stephen also has a deep bond with us, his home is really far from our homestay but he didn't hesitate to take a long road only to meet us and play with us. Isn't it the sweetest thing ever? And he loves animals so much. He would borrow my camera to hunt some animal pictures. That makes him even more adorable 💚

4. ANGGA - ANGGI

Angga (on the left) and Anggi (on the right), I usually called them Twins A. It's quite funny how I discovered them: At first, Anggi was absent because he was sick. I didn't know that Angga has a twin. After a week, I met Anggi who was running in the school hallway, but I called him Angga. Of course, he didn't answer. Then, one of their friends told me that it was Anggi who just ran past me, and Angga was inside the class. Can you imagine how I reacted when I found out that the adorable kid has another adorable twin? Like... double cuteness, LOL!! They're almost identical. But it's easy to differentiate them once you get used to them. Angga has a big mole on his neck while Anggi has a smaller one on his left cheek, and Anggi's face is a bit smaller. It's cute how they always wear exactly the same clothes when they visited my homestay, and they always have the same haircut. Unlike the other kids, Angga and Anggi are very shy. They refused to get closer to us in the first two weeks. It was a big surprise when they visited our homestay despite their faraway home. And they visited us every day, although all they did were only sitting, hiding their faces, and whenever we asked them something, both of them have the same answers: "Nggak tau.." or just look away, refused to answer. But they're still really cute. This post is longer than the others because they are, you know, double~ 💙💙

5. ARDI

Ardi is in 4th grade. He was supposed to be in 5th grade, but he failed because he missed too many classes the previous year. It's sad because he's a brilliant kid, and much more mature than the others in character. He's the best kid I have ever met. He loves drawing and his drawing is fantastic. He knows that I adored him more than the other kids, but he didn't act spoiled at me while the other kids usually tried to get our attention. He would just sit a bit farther and draw something, he understands that I have to teach his friends. He's very sincere and calm. He takes good care of Rico, he keeps him accompanied and he always helps Rico doing his homework. Ardi always participated in our programs, and he did it wholeheartedly. Before I left, we made a promise that he would not absent from school anymore and he would reach the first rank in class. I have faith in him because he's actually brilliant, he's just so lazy last year, but he wanted to change. Isn't that sweet? 💗 Sadly, on the last day, I couldn't meet him for the last time because he was so determined to go to school despite the fact that it would be the last time he spends his time with me. I'm just so proud of him. Ah, no worries... two weeks after the farewell day, I met Ardi again because I visited the village again with my friends so we got to say our farewell properly for the last time. I will cherish the time he spends with us 💗

6. BASTIAN

His full name is Bastian Saputra, and I'm the only one who called him Bastian. Bastian and Ardi is one packet for me, I love both of them the most. Bastian also loves drawing, although his drawing isn't as great as Ardi, he enjoys it. Bastian has a problem in reading, although he's already in 4th grade. He's slower in reading compared to others, that's why I focused him on learning how to read and whenever we're together, I would ask him to read any words that we found near us. Bastian is a cheerful kid, and he's already visited me in Jakarta once. He's also the one who calls me the most 😁 He loves playing more than studying, that's normal 😋 He and Ardi completed each other, and Ardi would always gladly help him. And both of them are my special sons 💗

I made a promise to them that I will visit once in a while. Hopefully, I could really make it ❤

Saturday, Class, Taman Mini

Last Saturday I went to Taman Mini Indonesia Indah for Production and TV Broadcasting Class with my classmates. The last time I visited that place was loooong time ago. It was nice to see those traditional bridges of every province in Indonesia. We got to shot some sceneries and had broadcasting training. Having an outdoor class once in while felt great, spent the day off with these collegues was so much fun too, I was refreshed, especially because my mind and heart have been messed up for these past few days. Thank You, Mr. Joni!

The class
 

the camera was so heavy, apparently...

The Beautiful Indonesia Bridges and Museum

  

 

The Classmates!

 

All I need to erase this boredom is by doing new things with different people. Alhamdulillah, will appreaciate them more than before. 💕

Things I'm really grateful for...

Friends are amazing. Meeting up with them can refresh your feeling and mind. They feel like family for you. You can talk with them for a long time and never get bored. Maybe there are times when we take a break for a while after a long chat, but it won't last for too long because we will always find new topics or back to the old topics. We won't get tired of doing the same things over and over again as long as we do that with friends. Having lunch in McD will be one of your precious moments just because your friends accompany you. Every little thing you do with your friends will be a precious moment that you want to cherish. Friends are gifts of our lives. They can make your not-so-colorful life filled with a rainbow. Thank God for surrounding me with many great friends. They change my life and my point of view about life and they make me become a better person than I used to be. Thank you, Friends 💗

The Fun in the Last Exam!

Today is the last day of my final exam. I'm studying Journalism in college now and today we got to shoot a Talk Show as our last project for the final exam of TV and Radio subject. Pretty awesome, huh? 😎

My classmates were divided into three groups and each group has to make a talk show video that includes two commercial breaks in it. My group had finished the commercial break video a few days ago (and those are the most absurd commercials I've ever seen, ahahaha!!) I played as a ghost in one of the commercial breaks, and I played it quite brilliantly, I guess... 🙈 And today, the whole classmates have shot the talk show part. It was full of fun. I really enjoyed it. And I got to sing at the ending of my group's talkshow. I was really nervous. I still don't have enough confidence to perform in front of many people, even after those choir training, but I think I'm not as nervous as I used to be. But still... I couldn't help but kept closing my eyes as I was singing, ahaha. What an unprofessional singer 😝

the heels I wore made me feel even more nervous 

it's a wraaaap....~

I'm so glad that my relationship with my classmates has gotten better than before. I was so shy and never really talked properly with them, but it has been more than a year we are together. I want to treasure people in my life and I started to open myself little by little to them. Hopefully, this friendship will keep developing as time goes by. Ahaha... wish us luck and get high scores for this exam (and the other exams as well!!).

Btw, I welcome you warmly, Holiday! Be great... 😚

Isaka and Maximilian

Today is really exhausting. It feels really nice now that I'm already on my bed. Today was supposed to be my day off, but one of my lecturers asked my class to come to college because we had to go to PUTIKNAS. It is a broadcasting studio in UIN, and I and my classmates had fun there. We learned many things about television and broadcasting in a real place with those awesome cameras and stuff 😁

Today is also the first day of my activity in PSM UIN Jakarta. I'll be spending about 5 hours in college from 4.00 pm until 9.00 pm every day. Even on Monday, I have to spend about 10 hours, from 7.00 am until 5.00 pm. It'd be so exhausting, but today was fun. We learned how to read musical notes, etc. I had learned about this stuff in elementary school, but I've forgotten about it, hahaha... so it's nice to learn it again. Reading musical notes is fun and makes me understand music even more. We also learned how to do conducting. It was quite difficult to sing and conducting at the same time. We have to feel the music so we could make a good rhyme with our hands. It was indeed interesting. Btw, I'll be really busy for a month because I haven't become a member of PSM officially yet. We have to be able to go through all these lessons in a month without breaking the rules and I have to pass the mid-test too. I need to work hard and put all my effort into it because I really want to be in PSM. Of course, all those strict rules are somewhat annoying, but I need to sacrifice things to get the things I want, right? Besides, Mabit had taught me how to survive in such strict and difficult circumstances, so I'll show them that I'll get through this perfectly! Ganbarimasu!!

Oh, there's a funny and interesting rule in PSM UIN Jakarta. All members of PSM must have a new name made by our seniors. We must use this name when we're in PSM activities and all members of PSM must call us with those new names. My PSM name is Isaka. They said this name has a nice meaning, but when I look for it on google, I only found out that this is the name of a town. Haha, anyone could tell me what it means? I kinda like it, though. It sounds like a Japanese name. Every generation has its own name too, just like what I had in Mabit: Auxiliary 2010. And my PSM generation name is Maximilian. It means strong fighter or something like that.

Well, I already have quite a lot of nicknames since I was a kid: my family called me Ade, and they have never called me by my name, not even once. My family called me Andria, from Rosandria. My school friends called me Denisa. My childhood friends called me Nisa. My Mabit friends called me Caca. And now, my PSM friends will be calling me Isaka. Oh well, as long as you don't call me any insulting names, I'm fine haha. Well, that's all for today. Please use the time in your youth to the fullest too, so you won't regret it when you're getting old. Haha, oyasuminasai! 💜

College has already started again!!

That's right. My holiday has just over. And my college days have already started since yesterday. I want to appreciate my college life more than I ever did in the last two semesters. This time I have come with new goals for my college life. Not a big goal, actually... it is actually ordinary for a college student.

1. Get at least a B to A score for every course. Well, Arabic will be an exception unless a miracle happens to my brain. I don't like the Arabic lessons and I've never even dreamed to get B- for this course. C+ is already great for my standard. *Yeah, just laugh at my stupidity please 😒

2. Being more active in class and make people know that I exist. Yeah, being more active because I've spent a year in my college being a silent student. Well, what should I say? I don't like talking to people. But at least this year I should make myself being more active. Wish me luck with this one. I'm really sure I will be able to change my personality. Ganbarimasu~

For now, that's all. I'm thinking about joining organizations but I still have yet to find any interesting organization. 

In other news, my beloved boyfriend Yuya Takaki will be hosting for October Shounen Club with my dearest drummer, Yuto Nakajima, and Daiki Arioka, so I'm really looking forward to it ❤

Seminar Pak B.J. Habibie

The class for today was canceled. Yokatta nee! Gue jadi sengaja melambat-lambatkan diri untuk pergi ke kampus karena jam 9 setelah Bahasa Indonesia adalah Bahasa Arab. Dangg... I'm so bad at this subject. Nggak ngerti sedikitpun. Makanya males banget masuk kelas. Anyway, last night my friend told me that today, there will be a seminar about Technology and Democracy and the speaker will be none other than THE Prof. Dr. B.J. Habibie. Whoaaaah... I was so excited!! Tapi, seminarnya berbarengan dengan kelas Bahasa Arab dan gue pun dilanda galau antara mengikuti seminar atau masuk kelas. Well, gue akhirnya memilih ikut seminar karena kalaupun masuk kelas, gue hanya akan pusing dan melamun selama dua jam. Percuma kan... hehe.

Singkatnya, gue datang ke auditorium UIN setengah sembilan. Dan... Pak Habibie datangnya telat. Tapi cuma setengah jam, sih. Waktu Pak Habibie datang dan berjalan di tengah auditorium, gue merasa dia berkarisma banget. Kayak ada aura indah di sekelilingnya, hahaha. Dia pun mulai berbicara tentang Teknologi dan Demokrasi. Gue nggak akan memasukkan semua materi diskusinya disini karena terlalu panjang (3 1/2 jam seminar boi). Yang pasti, gue merasa kagum karena Pak Habibie selalu bilang agar kita selalu mengingat Allah dan ketaqwaan saat kita hampir tenggelam di tengah hujan badai teknologi yang makin deras seiring berjalannya waktu. Pak Habibie juga bercerita banyak tentang isterinya. He sure loves his wife so much. He's a very romantic person ❤

Pak Habibie bilang, S1, S2, S3, atau gelar apapun itu bukanlah hal yang penting kecuali kita ingin bekerja di kantoran atau mendapat pengakuan dari manusia. Yang penting adalah, kita bisa menambah nilai diri dan yang terpenting, nilai pribadi kita serta bisa memanfaatkan setiap detik yang diberikan Allah dalam hidup kita dengan baik

Pak Habibie bilang bahwa volume otak manusia itu sebesar dunia ini. Kenapa? Karena manusialah yang menciptakan teknologi. Otak manusialah yang menciptakan berbagai teori hidup termasuk teori demokrasi, dan tentu saja, teori yang kita buat itu harus berpegang teguh pada agama dan Al-Quran. Nah, kalau volume otak manusia saja sebesar dunia, bagaimana dengan volume 'otak' Tuhan? Betapa dahsyat dan luar biasanya pasti Allah SWT itu, katanya. Overall, semua yang dibicarakan Pak Habibie bermanfaat dan semua orang terlihat kagum banget sama pembuat pesawat tersebut. Apalagi Pak Habibie sangat ramah. Oh iya, waktu sesi tanya jawab, ada seorang mahasiswa yang absurd abis. Setelah menyampaikan pertanyaannya, mahasiswa itu bilang, "Saya mengagumi Anda sejak saya kecil, Pak. Anda adalah inspirasi saya. SAYA MENCINTAIMU PAK!!" The whole audience laughed but we felt you, mas wkwkwk

Ya, kurang lebih begitulah seminar Pak Habibie tadi. Seru dan benar-benar menambah banyak wawasan dan pandangan baru. Tapi yang paling gue sukai dari seminar ini adalah betapa rendah hatinya Pak Habibie dalam setiap perkataan dan ilmu yang diberikannya. Dan bagaimana beliau selalu dan selalu mengingatkan kita pada Allah. Kebanyakan ilmuan atau orang-orang yang bergerak di bidang teknologi secara mendalam 'kan jadi tersihir oleh ilmu pengetahuan dan justru melupakan kebesaran Tuhan. Nah, Pak Habibie bilang bahwa dia berhasil survive dari jaring-jaring ilmu pengetahuan itu. Ilmu pengetahuan tidak boleh membuat kita lupa bahwa kita memiliki Tuhan. Benar-benar seminar yang mendidik tapi tak menggurui. 

Btw, seminar selesai jam setengah satu siang dan gue ada kelas terakhir yaitu Psikologi yang dimulai jam satu siang. Tapi, karena gue terlalu malas untuk masuk, gue memutuskan untuk pulang (Ya Allah mau jadi apa kamu, An?!). Jadi, hari ini gue ke kampus yang jauh banget dari rumah itu hanya demi menonton seminar Pak B.J. Habibie. Wahaha... that's what I'll called priorities! 

College, 2nd Semester, and Task...

Hey there, blog...

My 2nd semester in college already started about three weeks ago. I thought I would have an easy time as I had in the 1st semester, but I was wrong. Most of my new college lecturers are less kind than the ones I met in semester 1. They are hard to deal with and very strict about so many things. Even on the first day of college, those lecturers ordered us to buy many books and do so many tasks. Fyi, I didn't have any books in semester one except a notebook to write the lessons. But this time, every subject has its own material books. Since I have ten new classes for semester 2, I have to buy so many books because some lecturers want more than just one material book. Oh dear... my wallet~

 

Well, college is not that bad, actually. I've decided to be more focused in semester two, so I pay more attention to most of every subject. These new lessons are not too hard to understand. And I got a very cool lecturer in Kalam Science. He's an excellent writer. My new Arabic lecturer is better than I had in semester one too. Even though I still couldn't understand many things in that lesson, this new lecturer has a better way of teaching than the old one. Hopefully, my Arabic lecturer in semester one never read this 😆

 

What else? Hmm... The sun has been unfriendly these days, right? It shines too bright, and the weather is too hot sometimes. I miss the rainy season. I gotta go now. I'm going to accompany my mom to buy some household needs. And I have some homework to do. So, I'll see you next time. Jaa nee...