One of My Dreams...

One of my absurd dreams is having a duet partner who actually knows how to sing a duet... if you know what I mean. Haha... somehow, I've been wanting to have a duet partner since I listened to duet songs when I was a kid. I think it's wonderful when two voices are mixed and harmonized beautifully. That's why when I'm listening to a duet song, I would learn the 2nd chords and notes as well, and master it, simply because I wished I would find someone later to sing it with me, LOL. What a random dream. It would be amazing if our voices and hearts are intertwined 😋

One of my Favorite Duet Moments and Couples~

If You Don't Have Anything Nice to Say, Don't Say Anything At All

Gue nggak suka saat orang lain menyebarkan energi negatif dengan marah-marah di social media, apalagi sekarang ini sosmed udah jadi semacam buku laporan harian setiap orang, kan. Emang sih, dunia maya itu erat dengan freedom of speech, tapi semakin kesini, gue malah merasa hal itu membuat orang jadi kelihatan nggak punya etika berbicara. Apalagi kalau udah mencela-cela orang lain di sosmed.... Kalau kita nggak suka dengan orang tersebut, ya nggak usah ngajak-ngajak orang lain buat nggak suka juga. Kalau marah, jangan ajak orang lain ikutan marah. Kasihan kan, orang-orang innocent itu jadi kecipratan dosa juga. 

Lucunya lagi, orang yang sibuk menjelekkan orang lain tersebut sebenarnya sedang melihat refleksi dirinya sendiri yang terpancar di orang lain, tapi dia sendiri nggak sadar dan nggak mau mengubah dirinya. Dude, before you judge others, look first in the mirror and ask yourself: do you know what they have been through? Have you been good enough?

Pernah dengar kata-kata pamungkas Umar Bin Khattab?

"Saat kita hendak mencela orang lain, maka cela diri kita terlebih dahulu karena cela kita lebih banyak dari orang tersebut."

Daripada menyebarkan kekesalan, kenapa kita nggak mencoba memaafkan dan melihat lebih dalam lagi, kenapa kita bisa sebegitu terganggunya dengan sikap orang lain? Dan kenapa juga kita mempertahankan rasa kesal yang nggak ada manfaatnya itu? Lebih bermanfaat kalau kita memikirkan masalah di sekitar kita yang bisa kita bantu selesaikan, bukan? 

Maaf ya, jadi ikutan menyebar kekesalan juga, haha. Bingung gimana mau mengungkapkannya. Saat ini banyak masalah yang benar-benar membuat jiwa dan raga tidak lagi fokus di tempat seharusnya. Kuliah, PSM, KKN... Semua itu cuma seperti awan-awan tidak jelas di atas kepala, ditambah harus terkena energi negatif dari orang-orang sekitar setiap hari. Mau meledak rasanya, kalau seandainya nggak ingat masih punya Allah, mungkin gue udah memutuskan untuk aneh-aneh. Astaghfirullah.... 

So, be careful with your words, folks. It's sharper than a sword, and remember that you have to take responsibility for everything you say and you do later.

Menjadi Dewasa

Menjadi dewasa itu terlihat sangat menyenangkan saat masih kecil. Rasanya bisa menggenggam dunia, tak akan diatur-atur orangtua lagi, bisa kemana saja sesukanya. Tapi ternyata, itu tidak seindah bayangan masa kanak-kanak. Semua tergantung bagaimana kita menghadapi dan melihat hidup ini, sih. Tapi, akhir-akhir ini ada beberapa pengalaman yang membuat gue jadi mulai tidak menyukai masa dewasa atau orang-orang yang mengaku dewasa, padahal gue sedang dalam perjalanan menuju kesana. Terlepas dari sifat dewasa, tidak semua orang yang 'kelihatannya' dewasa memiliki sifat itu ternyata.

Supir angkot berumur sekitar 40 tahun-an marah-marah sepanjang membawa penumpang yang cuma sedikit karena dilarang ngetem terlalu lama oleh Polisi Lalu Lintas. Alhasil, dia malah menurunkan penumpangnya di tengah jalan dan masih memaksa minta bayaran, bahkan nyaris menabrak salah satu penumpang yang berjalan menjauh. Ya, semakin dewasa manusia, semakin ia mengerti arti uang dan harta.. 

Uang berhubungan dengan pekerjaan, dan pekerjaan bisa mengubah sifat seseorang. Semakin lama bekerja, ada yang mengejar profesionalisme, dan ada juga yang terbawa arus keindahan materi dari sebuah pekerjaan, kemudian lupa bagaimana cara bersikap terhadap orang lain. Pernah dengar atau bertemu dengan seorang pegawai restoran yang melayani pelanggannya dengan wajah malas dan sombong karena ia telah lama bekerja dan berpikir sudah tidak penting lagi bersikap ramah pada customer biasa? Dewasakah itu?

Salah satu yang tidak gue sukai dari 'menjadi dewasa' adalah pertengkaran bukan lagi secara terang-terangan, tapi adu kata-kata halus namun mengandung unsur sindiran yang bermaksud 'menusuk' hati. Sadar atau tidak, orang dewasa lebih sulit memaafkan dan lebih lama menyimpan rasa kesal.

Semakin 'dewasa' seseorang, semakin sulit ia meminta maaf. Semakin mengerti 'nilai diri' dan menjunjung tinggi harga diri, akhirnya malah nggak tahu mana harga diri, dan mana gengsi. Yang dimahalkan bukannya harga dirinya, malah harga gengsinya. Padahal waktu kecil dulu, bertengkar dengan teman secara terang-terangan, mengatakan tidak menyukainya, tapi pada akhirnya kita bisa bermaaf-maafan secara terang-terangan. Mengikuti nasihat Guru untuk saling menjabat tangan ketika bermaafan.

Agaknya, orang-orang lupa bahwa tumbuh besar, bertambah usia, belum tentu bertambah pula kedewasaannya. Sebagian besar hanya tumbuh, bukan menjadi dewasa, tetapi menjadi mesin untuk menuruti ini dan itu, tunduk pada aturan ini dan itu. Ketika kita berpikir bahwa orang-orang yang lebih muda atau jabatannya lebih rendah dari kita adalah orang yang nilai dirinya lebih rendah dari kita, dan orang-orang lanjut usia hanyalah orang tua yang sudah tidak ada harganya lagi, saat itulah kita menunjukkan bahwa kita BELUM DEWASA. Meremehkan orang lain adalah salah satu sikap yang menunjukkan bahwa seseorang belum dewasa, 

Semoga dilindungi diri ini dari pertumbuhan yang membawa pada kesia-siaan.

Balance in Life

So, how's life? So far so................... tired! Btw, I'm having writer's block now. You know, that syndrome when you couldn't write anything although you want to write. That's why I don't write as often as I used to be in this blog. Because I actually don't know what to write or how to write it. Now, I'm trying to write my daily life to get my inspiration back 😅

It's been more than a week but this illness still sticks in my body. Inflammation, flu, fever, and maag. These never-ending activities often make me forget to eat regularly. I lost some weight and my friends even told me that I become too thin now, but don't worry because I'm strong. I won't let this sickness hold me down from doing my activities.

can you tell my eyes? I was still sick when this photo were taken =_=

Anyway, it's not only bad things that happened to me lately but there are also good things. Some friends offered me jobs; TV Show Script's translator, writer at Media Indonesia, and waitress at my friend's cafe. I'm currently working as a waitress now. It's not about the salary, but experience instead. So, yeah... the sickness and chances that Allah give to me at the same time are proof that my life is still in the balance, hahaha.

I also learned the difference when you're working for your passion and working for money only. When I'm in PSM, I don't mind doing things as much as I could because my passion is there, singing, art, and everything. When I'm working somewhere else, in something that's totally different and definately far from my passion, time goes by very slowly. Although I always try to do my best in everything, it's kinda hard when your heart is not in it, all you can do is just pushing yourself to the limit, hahaha. But no worries, I have fun too~

At Workplace, Kopi Kampung... Look how pale I am.

Alhamdulillah, I hope I could gain money to pay fees for the Vietnam competition all by myself, without having to ask my parents. Ameeen. Ah, happy holiday, though I couldn't really call it a 'holiday', hahaha.

What's on My Mind...

Lebih sulit untuk memahami kawan sendiri, begitu kata kebanyakan orang. Menyedihkan bukan, ketika kawan seperjuangan, teman sepermainan, kekasih yang disayang, berubah menjadi sosok yang tak lagi kita kenal, bahkan untuk menyapa saja kita merasa aneh. Hanya karena sebuah kesalahan kecil, ribuan kenangan berharga seolah tak lagi penting, seolah tak pernah terjadi. Katanya, orang akan lebih mengingat keburukan dibanding kebaikan seseorang. Entah siapa yang harus disalahkan. Orang yang berbuat keburukan itu, atau orang yang tidak bisa memaafkan kekhilafan orang tersebut. Itulah hati manusia. Ia menyimpan misteri yang dalamnya melebihi lautan terdalam sekalipun, menyimpan miliaran perasaan tak terungkapkan, kemudian mengeluh karena merasa sendirian.

The Things that Can't be Said, Write it...

When I try to show what I truly want and feel without saying anything, of course, no one will understand. The thing is... I'm also the kind of person who always feels hesitant and keeps everything to myself. In the end, I ended up hurting myself because I can't do anything about it. It becomes difficult to trust others, even those who are closest to me... I can't give them my 100% trust or faith in them because I feared disappointment and rejection. It's not even their fault. The fault is in me because I'm the one who decided to not tell them what I feel or think. And the fault is in me because I'm the one who decides everything in my life. 

Maybe that's what life is, we can't expect it will go the way we always want it to be, and it's impossible for everyone to understand what we really feel. In the end, we can only trust ourselves, being indendent, strengthen ourselves, and stop depending on others.

So, why do I write this? I don't know, maybe to help me release some bad energy and to feel relieve because I can put this feeling into writing. Thank you for reading ❤

Hold On

This post is going to be random and full of my rants, haha. At this kind of time, I thanked those who invented the internet. Though I only have 30 minutes to online through Facebook, Twitter, and also this blog, it really entertained me, it refreshed my mind, seriously. I mean, I spent almost the entire day in college and only come home to sleep, and must go back to college in the next morning to spend another 12 hours there, struggling with Trapara stuff. It's not easy to take care of 140 people for a month. The busiest month has finally come. November. Trapara 2012 and Midtest Semester. To tell you the truth, I don't even know which one should I prioritize more right now between college and organization, haha. Though my heart has chosen, my mind and logic told me that I shouldn't listen to the heart only because my responsibility is not only organization but also college.

I almost dropped. Some of my friends fell sick, lost voices, etc but we're trying our best to do what we have to do. Their spirit makes me want to do my best too. I'm sure this will give me great things in the future. The experiences I will gain insha Allah will be useful for me later. This is the process to be a better, stronger person. I often hear a voice inside my head that keeps telling me to just give up, but I keep refusing. I remember a saying, "If you're tired, just stop for a while, take a rest, but don't stop..." Thanks, Mabit Nurul Fikri for told me that. Ah, suddenly I miss Mabit and their awesome intelligent people 😔

I don't get paid for being this busy, but I'm sure Allah will pay me with something worthier than money. Experiences. How to socialize with people. How to work with people who have totally different personalities. To not be selfish and prioritize my personal ego. To know and understand people for their good and bad. To look at me in the mirror and introspecting my very own self. I just hope I could hold on and be strong. As long as I have Allah, I fear nothing. He will guide me and He will give me the strength that I need. 

Hmm... apparently, there aren't too much rants in here, haha. Positive thought wins!

Semangat, Kawan-Kawan Panitia Trapara 2012! 💗

Chance

Everyone deserves a chance, but chances are also given based on a lucky chance, so if you don't get the chance, you're not lucky.

Lessons from Losing Voice

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Things start to get tough for these past few days and will continue for the next few months. Trapara 2012 will be started soon. Tough days are coming and one of its effects is I lost my voice now due to inflammation and exhaustion *sighs* I can't talk, I can't sing, I can't laugh, I can't scream, I can't swing (?) for undetermined time to recover it. Oh well.... I hated it at firts, but now I think I'm quite happy because I don't need to talk to others. Sometimes without I realize it, I laughed too much, talked too much, most of them are usually useless talk. By not being able to make any sound like now, I could learn not to use my mouth for any useless conversation, for example: gossiping. Nobody's perfect including me. But we can always try to be better person. What is a good person? Who is him? Well, these past few months, I've been learning deeply about Muhammad SAW, so he should be our example of a good person. As a Muslim, it is our obligation to follow his way of living. Of course we will never be able to be as humanely perfect as him, but we can always try to follow what he had taught. As a human, I realized that I've done a lot of mistakes and I still do even now, but by making Muhammad as my role model makes me be more careful when I talk or act in front others. It is not 'imaging' or pencitraan, I'm just trying to be a better person.

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Bucketlist

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Things I really want to do before I die

1. Go to Makkah and Madinah to do ibadah haji with family 

2. Graduate from UIN

3. S2 any lesson I'm feel like learning, such as music, vocal, teacher, etc.

4. Mengelilingi bumi Indonesia yang luas dari ujung Sumatera sampai ujung Papua

5. Travelling to Japan

6. Travelling to Europe

7. Get married.

8. Publishing my own books

9. Arranging songs for my choir

10. Make my parents happy in any way I can 

11. Become volunteer teacher for Indonesia Mengajar project for a year.

12. Find the best meadows in other countries and spending the day lying on it <3>

13. Spending the afternoon under the Eiffel Tower with my future husband.

14. Naik balon udara >.<

15. Visit Neverland, Michael Jackson's house

16. Visit The Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Universal Studio Orlando

17. Become a good wife and mother

18. Riding a bicycle in random street in UK

19. Diving with my children

20. Buy a house and private car for parents and my own family

21. Building a mosque in village

22. Adopting orphans

23. Watch Hey!Say!JUMP Concert

24. Khatam Al-Quran for more than 10 times 

25. Wear syar'i hijab like Rasulullah's wifes, without the chadaar of course hehe.

26. Building my own school and library 

Nah, thanks Tari for introduced me this vocab. Hmm... I haven't thought more about things I really want to do beside those things. It would be great if those really come true, right? Hehehe... I'll try to pursue them and make them as my goals, in other words, I have to become successful and rich if I want to make them come true. Bismillahirrohmanirrohim...

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Tweets Archives

Saving some of my worth-reading tweets before I wipe them off. Sounds stupid but I'm deleting all of my tweets now because I need to start over something and because they're too much and most of them are   totally garbages :') but some of them have special meaning for me so I'll keep them :) 

- We won't make the same story like others. We will enjoy two different worlds for now and wait until God let them collide. We'll be patient. We'll be okay.

- Some things are better left unsaid. Some questions are better left unanswered

- As long as you're doing your best, no matter what the result is, nothing you'll regret, because there's always lesson behind something.

- Actually, it's best to be yourself instead of trying to be someone else, because Allah has made you different than others.

- Seperti angin, jika hanya sepoi2 terasa menyenangkan, tp jika terlalu besar bisa menghancurkan. Segala yg berlebihan itu tidak baik.

- Jahiliyah time is moment when you're drowned in the darkness and you don't realize it. Everybody has that moment. That's part of growing up

- When you speak the truth, some will hear, some will ignore, and others will against you. Don't be afraid. Stay strong.

- Happiness comes from the moment you have through in life in which you could feel the same happiness when you recall it again in the future.

- Now those memories become lessons when I recall 'em again. Tears and laugh, they shouldn't be regretted. They made me who I am today.

- I don't hate separation. I just dislike it a lot. Especially when it comes to people who's worthy in my life. I can cry for days inside

- No matter how big your body has grown, you always have that special place to lean on your body from exhaustion. That place is mom and dad.

- All you need to do is please God and He will let your beauty shines not only to one person, but the whole world just like Khadija and Aisyah

- Writer is usually quite, they talk through their writings instead of their mouths.

- It's never too late to change ourselves to be better. Life is all about improving yourself for Allah's sake.

- Ada hal yg lo lebih baik dibanding gue, ada hal yg gue lebih baik dibanding lo, akhirnya saling sharing, that's what make us equal :)

- You are alone in the world. You pissed off. There are so many people outside. Why am I still feeling this lonely?

- Today may won't be as great as yesterday, or maybe it'll be one you will treasure the most, whatever it is, remember to always be thankful ♥

- The pain in your heart will be healed by praying. Don't feel miserable when you have Allah with you ☺

- You will always be there for your friends when they need it, but you won't ask them to do the same. You're so weird but nice, but weird.

- Being alone makes you think a lot about many things, realized about the simplest things.

- If I tell you, you might be bothered by it. You might feel discomfort, so I'll just save it for myself. Let only me and Allah who know..

- Sometimes I wanna blurt out my feelings like teenager, but I hold it in because I know it's childish. Tho I think it'd make me feel relieved

- I want to go back to those old days when we were still so clueless, when we were questioning our heart

- Mimpi yg aneh. Endingnya bahagia tapi tetap aneh. Kenapa gue dan semua orang berubah jadi burung lalu terbang menuju sunset at the end? -,-

- I shouldn't complain about my life when there are people in other country who's struggling for living.

- There's no difference either you're close or far away. Right?

- I don't need you to say it. I need you to show it.

- Seseorang yg menerima kekalahan dengan sportif dan ikhlas sudah pasti berjiwa besar dan sudah pasti keren :D

- Rasanya kayak proses komunikasi yang tidak berjalan baik karena tidak ada feedback dari komunikan terhadap komunikator

- The journey still long. I've always been missing you but I remind myself again that I shouldn't make a fuss about it.

- Looking back to the old times.. I still couldn't believe that we're drawn to each other now. Haha, God really has unexpected story for us.

- If you care, do not hesitate to share

- The storm won't last forever. It'll end soon or later. You just need to learn how to dance in the rain. I'll dance along if you let me :)

- At the end of the day, the simplest act you did was the one who keep me strong. Every little thing you do. :)

- Mungkin yg diperlukan saat ini adalah berjauhan. Berpisah jalan. Jika Allah berkehendak, sejauh apapun itu, akan dipertemukan lagi.

- Just because they said they love you, doesn't mean they really care about you. In the end, you have to prepare yourself to stand alone.

- Setiap orang itu penting. Jangan pernah meremehkan mereka. Meremehkan adalah bentuk lain dari kesombongan.

- Rasa itu mengalir deras tak terbendung, namun tak ada wadah yg menampung. Akhirnya meluber dan perlahan menghilang.

- Aku menyerah. Aku kalah oleh rasa takut. Aku kalah oleh sikapmu. Aku kalah oleh diriku. :')

- Smile is a charity, so don't hesitate to smile. Your smile could be someone else's greatest gift, brighten up their day, without you know it

- Menyerah adalah hal yg membuat manusia sekeren apapun jadi gak keren. Begitupun dgn melanggar janji. Gue sih gak mau dibilang gak keren B-)

- I'll put that mask on my face so you won't see what's behind it. I'll keep my heart hidden so you won't be bothered by its beat.

- Ada rindu dalam sepi, ada kasih yg tak tersampaikan, ada semu dalam rasa, ada tangis dalam tawa.

- I think it doesn't matter for you whether I'm exist or not. So, why should I fight for someone who doesn't really care?

- A smile that can heal this heart from any wound. A smile that belongs to you.

- Silent is gold. Sometimes you just can't control what you're going to say and you'll hurt someone before you realize it..

- The scars that left in you after you get hurt are proofs that you've been through so much pain to be stronger.

- Aku dan kamu ada bukan untuk berlomba menjadi yang terbaik. KITA berusaha melakukan yg terbaik agar dapat bermanfaat untuk satu sama lain

- Menikmati drama kehidupan di sekitar. Menyimak berbagai pikiran orang2 yg begitu tertegun pada dunia.

that's all. Sadly I could't backtracked more to my old tweets which means I've tweeted too much haha. :')

The Beauty of Dream

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

* Another friend of mine has been chosen to be one of models in UIN Fashion Fair Model Hunt 2012. She's getting closer to her dream to be a designer.

* Another friend of mine is about to leave this country to Sakura nation for schoolarship, her dream is coming true.

* Another friend of mine wins Indonesia Kpop Cover 2012 and is chosen as Indonesia's representative to participate in World Kpop Cover Contest 2012. Another dreams of her has been accomplished.

I'm still seeing many of other dreams are getting closer to be reached. So many great people around me. One word for these pals: Inspiring.

You know, some people don't try too hard to inspire others. They're just simply doing their best in anything they do and voilaaa.... they will inspired you without they even realize it. Subhanallah... :)

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb

Malam ke-23 di Bulan Ramadhan

Malam Lailatul Qadar kah semalam? Entahlah.. Waallahu'alam, tapi pemandangan langit malam tadi begitu luar biasa, ketika bintang berada di tengah-tengah bulan, seperti lambang-lambang Islam yang banyak digunakan di atas Masjid itu. Subhanallah... :")

credit pic: @BurhanBanjar dan @Agus_Ws via twitter and special thanks to Dad who told to go outside to see it, and to Adhya Rizkia who pointed out the picture to me. 

Bertasbihlah kamu atas keindahan yang ditunjukkan Allah kepadamu, niscaya seluruh semesta akan bertasbih bersamamu. "Subhanallah.. Subhanallah.."

Salahkan Tuhan

Konser Lady Gaga di Indonesia dibatalkan. Penonton kecewa. Penonton menghina-hina FPI. Penonton menghina-hina negara. Penonton menghina-hina Polda. Penonton menyalahkan rakyat Religius yang dianggap kuno dan ketinggalan jaman karena tidak menyetujui terjadinya konser tersebut. Penonton mencari-cari kesalahan atas apa saja yang bisa memuaskan mereka. Lucu ya, melihat drama yang terjadi di negeri ini.

Kalau dipikir baik-baik, satu-satunya yang bisa kita salahkan adalah Tuhan. Kenapa? Karena yang menggagalkan acara tersebut adalah Dia. FPI, Polda, Negara, hanyalah perantaranya saja. Tuhan-lah yang mengatur segala hal di dunia ini, dari yang terkecil maupun yang terbesar. Kalau ingin menyalahkan, salahkanlah Tuhan karena Dia yang menuliskan cerita dunia ini. Dia yang menakdirkan kegagalan dan keberhasilan akan sesuatu.

Nah, apakah kamu cukup berani untuk menyalahkan Tuhan? Sudahkah kamu melihat dengan lebih baik lagi atas alasan dibalik setiap cerita ini? Sudahkah kamu berpikir bahwa Tuhan mungkin cemburu karena kamu terlalu memuja manusia yang diciptakannya sedangkan kamu sendiri lupa untuk beribadah kepadanya? Pernahkan kamu meniatkan sesuatu untuk menyenangkan Tuhan, sekuat kamu meniatkan sesuatu untuk menyenangkan manusia lainnya? Tuhan adalah Maha Pencemburu, dan Dia berhak untuk cemburu. 

Saya bukan fans Lady Gaga. Saya juga bukan bagian yang mendukung FPI. Terjadi atau tidak terjadinya konser tersebut tidak memberikan pengaruh apapun untuk saya. Hanya saja, lucu melihat banyaknya orang yang marah-marah dan menghina-hina negara terlalu berlebihan karena hal tersebut. Drama kehidupan yang diciptakan Tuhan ini memang lucu.

Minggu Cantik

Setelah sekian bulan, akhirnya gue ke salon lagi hari ini. Kegiatan yang menyenangkan untuk dilakukan di Minggu sore yang mendung, mencoba lepas dari segala pikiran tentang pekerjaan sejenak saja. Sejak kemarin, gue begitu ingin pergi ke salon. Akhirnya tadi gue ajak Mama ke salon deket rumah, namanya Salon 119. Lokasinya strategis dekat jalan raya, nggak terlalu ramai, bersih, dan lokasi untuk perawatan perempuan dan laki-laki pun dipisah. Very nice...

Gue bukan perempuan yang gemar bersolek sebenarnya. Pertama kali di ajak ke salon oleh Mama pun, gue merasa aneh. Mau ngapain sih buang-buang uang demi mempercantik diri? Begitu pikir gue dulu. Tapi, setelah merasakan sensasi di-lulur, di-creambath, di-massage, di-facial, dan berbagai perawatan lainnya, ternyata hal-hal tersebut memang cukup membuat ketagihan, haha. 

Ke salon memang bukan hal yang harus dilakukan sering-sering, tapi sesekali pergi ke salon untuk lulur-an atau massage sudah cukup untuk me-refresh tubuh dan pikiran kita. Lagipula, gue sudah mau masuk kepala dua. Sudah cukup gue hidup selama 19 tahun tanpa memperhatikan diri, sudah waktunya berubah menjadi wanita yang sesungguhnya... 

Okay, kidding. Itu bukan alasan untuk selalu pergi ke salon, kok, haha. Gue pun cuma pergi ke salon beberapa bulan sekali karena malas. Malah, Mama yang selalu memaksa dan mengingatkan untuk ke salon dan sebagainya. Mama sering mengeluh karena gue nggak memperhatikan penampilan dari kecil, makanya waktu SMA jadi korban jerawat dan kulit terbakar matahari karena terlalu sering main di luar wkwk.

Tentu saja, gue yang sekarang sudah nggak 'liar' seperti dulu. Gue bahkan mulai belajar masak, mengenakan pakaian yang lebih feminin, dan suka inisiatif duluan untuk merawat diri. Sifat tomboy itu nggak hilang, ia tetap melekat dalam diri 😜

Anyway, kecantikan yang sesungguhnya itu berasal dari dalam, dari jiwa kita. Jika kita mau menciptakan jiwa yang bersih dan cantik, caranya dengan selalu mengelilingi diri dengan kebaikan, dan..... sesekali perawatan di salon, hahaha! Yang terakhir nggak wajib sih, tapi sesekali ke salon sangat baik untuk refresh pikiran dan tubuh, lho, haha. Kecantikan juga datang dari jiwa yang bersih kan, hehe. Alright, I gotta go now. I hope you have a nice Sunday like me 😁

February 1st

First of all... 
WELCOME FEBRUARY!! The month of love, hahaha. Have you guys prepared your chocolate? 😝

These days have been like a roller coaster for me. It's a holiday, btw, but it doesn't feel like it. I mean, I have to go to my college every day because my choir is going to hold a concert in April so we have been doing the preparation since January. It's Maximilian Recital. We will present you the best choir concert ever, so do watch it in April, okay \(^o^)/ Also, as I've written before that I'm back to teaching again, but it doesn't take a lot of my time like it did last year because I'm not the head of Departement of Linguistic anymore so I could be a bit relax, hehe. 

Move to another completely unrelated news: Hey!Say!JUMP's Super Delicate cover has been out, and it looks gorgeous!! \(>o<)/

credit to jump-now@LJ

They will release a concert DVD too. Hey! Say! JUMP is really active, it's scary... 😂 And Happy Birthday to Yabu Kota-kun as the leader. LOL, sorry, I am late posting about this and I didn't make a special birthday post because I was lazy busy. FYI, I've watched Saikou no Jinsei no Owarikata with subtitles and it turns out to be one of the best dramas ever, so far. Hohoho... subtitles do matter! The drama is so deep and each story in each episode has a different and interesting plotline. I'm going to keep up with the drama!! 

Last but not least, I'm surrounded by awesome people. They make me want to be awesome too. Haha... I'll do my best! Jaa, gotta rush to Carrefour with my family now. Have a nice day! 

Guru yang Baik

Gue banyak menonton drama tentang guru. Dari semua drama itu, satu hal yang pasti gue pelajari mengenai guru yang baik: selalu berusaha untuk memiliki keyakinan pada muridmu, apapun yang terjadi. Bahkan ketika semua orang tidak peduli dan menyalahkan murid kita, kita harus tetap berusaha sebisa mungkin memahami alasannya, dan percaya padanya. Dengan begitu, murid itu akan percaya pada kita. Entahlah, apakah itu terlalu naif? Bahkan meski murid kita berbohong, kita harus percaya padanya? Bagaimana kalau murid itu menganggap kita bodoh dan meremehkan kita? Harga diri kita jatuh dan kita tak lagi mendapat hormat dari murid. 

Tapi, apakah hanya harga diri dan kehormatan yang lebih penting? Entahlah. Guru yang baik masih menjadi misteri bagi gue. Mungkin gue tidak akan bisa menjadi guru yang baik, tapi gue ingin menjadi seperti guru di drama-drama itu, yang selalu bisa yakin dan percaya dengan muridnya. Mungkin gue akan menjadi guru paling lemah sedunia kalau begitu, ya?

-terinspirasi menulis ini setelah melihat pertengkaran antar guru dan murid di timeline twitter.

Fenomena Macet

Hari ini adalah ke-3 kalinya gue terlambat di kelas Bahasa Inggris. Kalau sampai gue terlambat lagi minggu depan, it will be the end of my English class for this semester. Dan tentu aja, penyebab keterlambatan hari ini adalah tidak lain dan tidak bukan: macet.

Okay,  gue tau harusnya gue bangun lebih pagi, berangkat lebih pagi, dan melakukan segalanya lebih pagi. Gue tau harusnya gue nggak tidur jam 3 pagi sehingga bisa bangun lebih cepat. Gue tau, kok... 😜

Tapi sesungguhnya, kemacetan di Jakarta juga berperan besar atas segala keterlambatan yang terjadi. Kenapa sih orang Indonesia terobsesi untuk naik mobil pribadi? Mobil-mobil besar yang jumlahnya melebihi kapasitas rumah di Jakarta dan isinya cuma SATU orang. Jadi, kalau ada 10 orang yang keluar rumah, maka akan ada 10 mobil juga yang keluar.

lebih dari 50% mobil di gambar ini hanya berisi satu orang

Gue mencoba memahami alasan mereka memilih memakai mobil sendiri ketimbang kendaraan umum, tapi di saat yang sama. gue juga menemukan argumen untuk alasan-alasan itu. Jadi, rata-rata orang yang memilih menggunakan mobil pribadi di Jakarta adalah karena alasan-alasan di bawah ini:

1. Lebih hemat karena cuma perlu isi bensin beberapa hari sekali dibanding naik kendaraan umum setiap hari yang harus bayar minimal Rp2000.

Well, memang benar, sih. Tapi, nggak ada salahnya 'kan berbagi uang ke para kondektur bus, supir taksi, tukang ojek, dan berbagai kendaraan umum lainnya ketimbang isi bensin melulu. Kalau ada 5 orang yang memutuskan untuk memilih naik kendaraan umum hari ini ketimbang naik mobil pribadinya, paling nggak sedikit dari kemacetan di Jakarta akan teratasi dan kita juga jadi berbagi rezeki.

2. Lebih nyaman, terutama kalau mobilnya ber-AC. Meski terjebak di kemacetan berjam-jam, mereka nggak perlu kepanasan...

Padahal kalau kita naik bus umum, naluri kemanusiaan kita akan diuji, apakah kita akan mementingkan kenyamanan semata atau memberikan kursi kita ke orang yang lebih membutuhkan.

3. Gengsi

Pejabat-pejabat di negara lain masih banyak naik sepeda atau kereta ke kantor, lho. Beda dengan orang Indonesia yang meski jabatannya belum terlalu tinggi aja, mereka merasa perlu untuk menunjukkan ke masyarakat kalau mereka bermobil. Kayaknya kalau nggak naik mobil kemana-mana itu ada yang salah. Mobil malah jadi bahan untuk bergaya...

Yang membuat gue miris adalah, orang-orang ini mengeluhkan macet, tapi mereka masih nggak mau berhenti naik mobil pribadi. Orang-orang yang naik mobil besar SENDIRIAN itu mengeluh jalanan terlalu padat, padahal yang membuat jalanan padat adalah mereka sendiri. Capek deh... 

Kemacetan di Jakarta sudah dinilai sebagai semacam budaya oleh negara asing. Memalukan banget sih, masa kemacetan jadi budaya? 😈

Miss You...

*don't mind the title... I'm listening to that song now and I couldn't come up with another title so...

I'm writing a novel (again). Let's hope I will be able to finish this one. Actually, I have many ideas on my mind that I want to write but every time I write it down, I never been able to finish it. What a lame...

Now I decided to give it a try again. I'm thinking about posting this story on my blog, but I'm too shy to show it to people. But then again, if my story gets feedback from people, I guess it would encourage me to keep writing, right?

The question is, is there anyone who's interested to read it?

Oh well... Let see if I could finish this one then. Hahaha wish me luck!! And in completely unrelated news, I've got my Westlife tickets for Wednesday concert. Yaaaaaay!!! You have no idea how excited I am about this concert!!

College has already started again!!

That's right. My holiday has just over. And my college days have already started since yesterday. I want to appreciate my college life more than I ever did in the last two semesters. This time I have come with new goals for my college life. Not a big goal, actually... it is actually ordinary for a college student.

1. Get at least a B to A score for every course. Well, Arabic will be an exception unless a miracle happens to my brain. I don't like the Arabic lessons and I've never even dreamed to get B- for this course. C+ is already great for my standard. *Yeah, just laugh at my stupidity please 😒

2. Being more active in class and make people know that I exist. Yeah, being more active because I've spent a year in my college being a silent student. Well, what should I say? I don't like talking to people. But at least this year I should make myself being more active. Wish me luck with this one. I'm really sure I will be able to change my personality. Ganbarimasu~

For now, that's all. I'm thinking about joining organizations but I still have yet to find any interesting organization. 

In other news, my beloved boyfriend Yuya Takaki will be hosting for October Shounen Club with my dearest drummer, Yuto Nakajima, and Daiki Arioka, so I'm really looking forward to it ❤