The Beauty of Dream

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

* Another friend of mine has been chosen to be one of models in UIN Fashion Fair Model Hunt 2012. She's getting closer to her dream to be a designer.

* Another friend of mine is about to leave this country to Sakura nation for schoolarship, her dream is coming true.

* Another friend of mine wins Indonesia Kpop Cover 2012 and is chosen as Indonesia's representative to participate in World Kpop Cover Contest 2012. Another dreams of her has been accomplished.

I'm still seeing many of other dreams are getting closer to be reached. So many great people around me. One word for these pals: Inspiring.

You know, some people don't try too hard to inspire others. They're just simply doing their best in anything they do and voilaaa.... they will inspired you without they even realize it. Subhanallah... :)

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb

Memaafkan

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Was a bit too angry in my last post, hehehe. Sorry. Mencoba mengikuti teladan Rasulullah SAW ketika ia melihat jenazah Hamzah dikoyak oleh orang-orang kafir setelah perang Uhud.

"Tetapi sesungguhnya memberi maaf itu jauh lebih baik bagi orang yang sabar..." sabda Rasulullah SAW.

Meski ia merasa marah dan sedih, namun Manusia yang Tak Punya Cacat dalam jiwanya itu tetap membesarkan hati untuk memaafkan. Dan mungkin sebagai manusia biasa, saya juga harus bisa memaafkan. Mungkin juga lebih membuka pikiran dan jiwa saya sendiri. Mungkin saya juga pernah menyinggung perasaan orang-orang itu. Ini pelajaran untuk menuju akhlak yang lebih baik, bukan? :')

Memperbaiki diri itu memang butuh proses, seperti emas mentah yang diolah untuk menjadi mahal dan berharga, prosesnya panjang dan tidak mudah. Semoga kita senantiasa diberi petunjuk dan dibukakan pintu hatinya oleh Sang Khalik. Amin.

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Stop Looking for an Excuse Now

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"Salah jurusan..!" are things that I kept repeating on my head every time I have to face my college, my study. Although Journalistic was my first choice in PMDK (because you only got to choose one subject!), but for these past two years, I've been bug by the thought that I've chosen the wrong subject. I kept thinking that I should have took Literature instead since I've always wanted to work as a writer. I don't want to be boring journalist because I don't even like news. I'm not even up to date on things that going on around me. How could I become a journalist? 

I kept blaming on my parents without their knowing, that the reason I was forced to take this subject was because my big brother already took English Literature in UNPAD, so I got to choose different subject. Haha shame on me..

You know what? I think I've come to realize that actually, I'm just looking for an excuse all the time. Excuse for my laziness, for my disappointment to myself who too afraid, too pesimistic to pursue my own dream. The result is I've collected some bad grades for these past two years. 

I keep hearing people saying, "You're awesome, you're smart, you're better than me, you're....." bla bla bla, they keep praising on me for my indifferent towards my bad grade. My friends thought that my flat expression means that I'm strong and okay. That I'm invulnerable. Those bad grades will never make me down, they said. Well, true, at first I didn't really care about my grades since I never put effort to make them improve, haha. I'm such a pathetic.

Getting new friends, getting to know people's personality, and some quality talk with besties make me realize that I've waste my precious two years because of my selfishness, my own ego. My heart hurts a bit when I realized that the ones who will be hurt the most about me is not me but my parents. I will make them really sad if they ever find out what kind of college student their daughter is. :') 

New semester begins. I think it's time to take my study seriously. I'm sure I'll be able to reach good grades, be more focus than ever. Hey, my bestfriends in class are the most inteligent people I've ever met and they always help me. I'm sure if I put my full effort into this, I will success. Stop looking for an excuse for my laziness and selfishness. This is for my own sake, right. Allah with me. I shall continue the next two years of my college life in a better way. Getting good grades, getting part time job to make my parents be at ease, and graduate in the next two years (amin!)

Bismilllahirrohmanirrohim

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Sprout (Jdrama)

One of the main reason I decided to watch Sprout is because this is the first drama where Yuri Chinen gets a lead role. I love to keep in touch with Hey!Say!JUMP's members drama, especially when they have significant role in it. I have read the manga Sprout before so I'm curious how it will be adapted into live action. Now, without further ado, let's jump to the story~

Fated Person?

Three months ago, Miku Ikenochi (Aoi Morikawa) became sick that she couldn't do anything but sit on the school stairs playground. At that time, someone unknown came and brought her to the school infirmary. Miku was really sick that she can barely see his face, but she remembers the touch of his hands. Miku believes that the boy is a part of her fate.

Living with Strangers

Miku's parents decided to make their house as boarding place to help the family pay household expenses. Miku who is used to be an only child and lived a peaceful life, suddenly has to share the house with three different strangers: Naoji Takigawa, an otaku who obsessed with action figures and Rurika dolls, Kiyoka Takiyama, a beautiful college student who's busy dating out with her boyfriend instead of studying, and the last is Shohei Narahashi. A handsome boy who enters the same school as Miku. Miku has trouble getting used with the new circumstances around her. She has to share bathroom, and bump into people she barely knows inside of the house.

One day, Miku found that her special glass is used by Shouhei without asking for her permission, Kiyoka ate her ice cream that she's been keeping in the fridge, and the worst is Naoji broke Miku's precious chime bell. Miku irritated and becomes mad with the three boarding people in her house. Shouhei, feeling guilty, immediately rushed off to his house which was kilometers away from Miku's house to get similar chime bell to replace the one which was broken.

Shouhei apologizes to Miku because of the new circumstances she has to face, but he also shows his gratitude towards Miku's family and the boarding house. He begs for Miku to accept the new people and try to get along together, although it's not easy at first, but Shouhei promised that he will try his best not to cause trouble anymore. Miku, realized that she was acting childish and touched by Shouhei's sincere apology, finally forgives him and the others. Miku accidentally fell on the floor because of her clumsiness. Shouhei offered his hand to help, and when Miku grabs a hold on Shouhei's hand, she recognizes that it is the same hand which helped him at entrance ceremony. Miku felt a sudden excitement insides her, she's filled with happiness because she found her fated person. But Miku's happiness didn't stay for long because the next day, she found out that Shouhei already has a girlfriend, Miyuki Ozawa (Fujiko Kojima).

The First for Everything
1. Shouhei and Miyuki
Just like Miku who fell in love with Shouhei because of the touch of his hands and how he always helps Miku whenever needed, Shouhei also loves Miyuki because of a strong memory they had when they were in middle school. Shouhei protected Miyuki from bullying and became her only friend when everyone was hating on her because the other students think of Miyuki as annoyance for getting a lot of boys attracted to her. One day, when Shouhei's parents got divorced and made him depressed, Miyuki was the only one who could see through Shouhei's fake smile. Miyuki then asked Shouhei to skip school and had fun outside to make Shouhei felt better. She grabbed Shouhei's hand and ask him to run with her. Shouhei felt saved because of Miyuki's existence and ever since then, he promised to protect Miyuki and stay by her side. 

2. Miku and Hayato

Hayato Katagiri (Lewis Jesse) is Shouhei's bestfriend. A popular boy who always plays with a lot of different girls but never be in real relationship. Hayato attracted to Miku after eavesdropping her conversation with her friends about dating random boys for fun. Miku believes that if she has to be in relationship one day, it should be with someone who is really dear to her and not just for fun. Hayato is attracted to Miku's innocence. Miku, aware with Hayato's reputation as a playboy, was hesitated with Hayato's confession at first, but she felt excited because Hayato is the first person who ever confessed to her. Hayato proves that he is serious with Miku and stopped going out with other girls. Miku who was feeling insecure because of her unrequited love, decided to open her heart for Hayato. She's amused with Hayato's sincerity who always stays besides her when she's feeling down. Miku decides to forget the feeling of Shouhei's hands by accepting Hayato's love, they began the relationship. Hayato was the first for Miku to experience real relationship, love, kiss, and everything.

When Love Changes?

Miku to Shouhei
Miku's love towards Shouhei becomes unrequited love once she found out that Shouhei has a girlfriend, and how precious Miyuki is for him. It was hard for her to get over her feelings because she has to live at the same house with Shouhei. Shouhei asked Miku to protect Miyuki when he is not around. Miku knows that her dislike towards Miyuki is 'caused by jealousy. But Miyuki's kindness makes Miku realized that she was being childish. Somehow, Miku feels that Shouhei is more unreachable because Miyuki is too good girlfriend for Shouhei and a good friend for Miku as well. So, Miku decides to give up on Shouhei and open her heart for Hayato.

Shouhei to Miku

Miku has always been a good friend for Shouhei ever since he moved in to her house. He can't help but care about her and always make sure that she is fine. Shouhei is always nice to everyone, but somehow with Miku, he feels kinda protective about her and always watching her without he realized it. Miku, just like Miyuki, can see through Shouhei's fake smile when he's actually feeling down. Shouhei barely realized that Miku loves him, he is busy taking care of Miyuki and think that Hayato likes Miku, but as they lived together and gets comfortable with each other, Shouhei starts to develop feelings for Miku. When he realized that, it's already too late because Miku has already in relationship with Hayato. This time, it's Shouhei's turn to feel miserable and jealous over Miku's intimate with Hayato which happens in front of his eyes, but he couldn't do anything about that.

The Break Up
Although it seems like everything has fall into place, but the heart can't lie. Miku is happy with Hayato, but deep down she still feels the love for Shouhei and cared a lot about him. While Shouhei is trying to keep his promise with Miyuki to always stay by her side, things sure have changed between them. Both Hayato and Miyuki could see this through their respective partners. In the end, Miyuki decided to break up with Shouhei because she realized that Shouhei stays beside her only to protect her, but his love is no longer for Miyuki. Miyuki said that she doesn't need anymore protection that she has become stronger now, and Shouhei has to be honest with himself. While Miku decided to break up with Hayato because she realized she still loves Shouhei and doesn't want to hurt Hayato by having two people in her heart. Even after the break up, Shouhei and Miku weren't approaching each other and keep their love secret. Shouhei moved out from Miku's house to go back to her mother because he's been running away from his problem, and then the four of them go back to become plain school mates.

Fated Person

A year passed since each couple broke up, and they are back to be plain school mates. Shouhei and Miku still keep their love for each other a secret, although they miss each other's company once they reunited at Miku's house for barbecue party.  Hayato and Miyuki approached Shouhei and Miku independently to ask them why they're not going out even after the break up. All they need to do is being honest to each other and not feeling guilty about Hayato or Miyuki's feelings. Miku gained the courage to talk to Shouhei and being honest about her feelings, she ran off to school to see Shouhei, but at that time, she fell on the stairs because of her clumsiness. Once again, a hand which she recognizes offered help to her. It was Shouhei's hand, all over again. They found each other at the stairs where Miku thought of her fated person which was Shouhei, and this time, the same hand and the same fated person has coming back to her. And this time, that fated person is going to stay.

One of my favorite things about this drama is the soundtrack. It contains a lot of wonderful song, especially the main theme from Western Band, Betty's Bomb Shell by Group of Love. The song is so addictive and it suits all of the scenes in the drama. Though from the story, it's pretty cliche and corny, but I enjoyed it thoroughly. Once in a while, it's good to watch this kind of innocent love. You don't even know who to ship because everyone is so cute with each other, I especially love how they make the holding hands becomes important in the relationship instead of a kiss, as if it is the epitome of fated person or true love.

PS: Gifs were taken from tumblr, feel free to message me if you want to be credited :)

Pergolakan

Timpang sebelah. Seperti jungkat-jungkit yang dimainkan sendirian. Sama sekali tidak menyenangkan. Ingin berpindah ke mainan yang lain, entah yang bisa dimainkan beramai-ramai atau yang bisa dinikmati sendiri, tapi raga ini terpaku, tak mau bergerak, memaksa bertahan, memaksa percaya bahwa akan datang teman yang mau bermain jungkat-jungkit bersama. 

Mencapai puncaknya. Hati menjadi terlalu lelah. Tak ada yang datang untuk menemani bermain. Menunggu, menunggu, menunggu. Berharap, berharap, berharap, hingga raga ini tak sanggup. Akhirnya tumbang. Karam. Hilang. Tak dipedulikan. Tak dipertanyakan. Tak diingat. Selamat tinggal.

Idhul Fitri 2012

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb. 

Tahun ini mengisi lebaran dengan mudik ke kampung halaman Papa di Blitar, Jawa Timur. Dan di malam Takbiran, terjadi kejadian dramatis yang menyebabkan kaki kanan gue keseleo parah. Astaghfirullah, nggak lagi-lagi deh pecicilan dan lompat tanpa melihat kanan kiri, hahaha. Well, paling tidak hal ini memberikan gue banyak pelajaran di hari kemenangan ini. Gue jadi sadar banget bahwa gue itu SANGAT TAKUT dengan perpisahan kehilangan, tapi kejadian tersebut membuat gue belajar untuk lebih mengingat bahwa saat-saat itu pasti datang, siap ataupun tidak, dan kita harus menerimanya karena segala hal di dunia ini datang karena Allah, hidup untuk Allah, dan akan kembali juga kepada Allah. :')

Sholat Ied sambil menahan kaki yang keseleo itu.... indescribable. Kenikmatan dalam rasa sakit atas rasa syukur karena bisa meraih hari kemenangan dan kesadaran akan berharganya masa sehat. Dan ketika keluarga yang lain bersilaturahmi ke rumah saudara-saudara di Blitar, gue cuma bisa bengong di rumah karena nggak bisa jalan. Alhamdulillah, hal ini membuat gue merenung tentang banyak hal dan begitu banyak pelajaran yang gue dapat. I realized that when human is on their lowest point of their lives, their weakest moment, that moment they would want to get closer to Allah the most. Seperti saat bersujud. Saat-saat paling dekat kita kepada Allah justru saat kita berada di posisi terendah, saat kita mengesampingkan segala kesombongan dan membenamkan wajah kita pada Bumi, menghadap Allah yang Maha Tinggi. :) This year might not be the best ending, but the lessons I got can't be replaced with anything. Alhamdulillah. 

Anyway, here's some pictures along the trip~ 

Blitar

  

  

  

 

 

  

Malang, Pandaan

  

  

  

  

  

Jogjakarta

  

  

 

  

  

 

  

  

 

  

 

Btw, keseleo itu nggak menghalangi gue untuk tetap bersenang-senang selama liburan. Meski harus pakai perban agar bisa jalan (dan sebenernya gue lumayan suka melihat kaki gue diperban, kayaknya jadi terlihat keren gimanaaa gitu seolah gue baru balik dari perang, hahaha). Kaki keseleo itu gue ajak main bola, lari-larian, jalan-jalan, main tendang-tendangan sama adek gue, dan Alhamdulillah, sekarang sudah mulai membaik meski masih pincang. Semoga cepat sembuh deh sebelum kuliah dimulai. Amin.

 Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

The Legend of Korra

I watched Avatar: The Legend of Korra. Here's the review: 

The world is now at peace since Avatar Aang and Prince Zuko came together to unite all nations to become one. Now they live in Republic City where all benders of four elements live together in harmony. The story revolves around Korra, the next Avatar after Aang died and reincarnated to a young girl and a waterbender. Avatar- The Last Airbender was all about Aang trying to master other three elements except air bending and he had to hide his identity as Avatar or The Fire Nation would catch and kill him, while Avatar Korra has master all three elements, water, earth, and fire, and she's very proud of her identity as Avatar. Nonetheless, Korra faces difficulty to master air bending and she couldn't bring herself to meditate and meet the previous Avatars to ask for help. Moreover, she has to protect her country from Equalist, an anti-bender revolutionary group. The Equalists are non-benders led by a mysterious masked man, Amon. Their goal is to bring about "equality" between benders and non-benders, and Amon has the ability to remove a person's bending ability. It's almost impossible to believe since the only one who could possess such power is only the Avatar.

The Legend of Korra has more complicated story than The Legend of Aang. The world where Aang and his friends were fighting for their lives looks like a very ancient world compared to the world in Avatar Korra, LOL... It's really interesting everytime Aang shows up in the episodes of Avatar Korra as adult, hahaha. Which one do I like the most? Hmm... both story are great, but sure Avatar Kora has developed a lot in the plot, but The Legend of Aang has special impression for me. I always love Aang (and Prince Zuko!) but Korra and his new pals are great as well. I don't think I can really choose hahaha. 

Ah, I love Avatar :D

PS: I'll be leaving to East Java for Mudik. Happy Ied Mubarok to all Muslims. Mohon maaf lahir dan batin :D