Alhamdulillah, last week I have officially graduated from UIN Syarif Hidayatullah Jakarta after 7 years of struggling with anxieties and kept questioning myself whether I should continue the study or just drop out. I'm so relieved and thankful that I was able to win those negative thoughts and graduate properly although it is late compared to normal students. With the help and support from my family and friends, I was able to push myself and believe in myself.
To be completely honest, I never expect that day would come since I thought I might not gonna make it to graduation. And there were so many obstacles along the way, it was almost impossible to register for graduation ceremony due to some financial problems and some errors from the college itself, so when that day finally approached me, I was like, is it happen for real? Am I really going to MY graduation ceremony?
Well, I couldn't help but felt overjoyed and excited, even when some people said it's too late for me to celebrate (due to my 7 years of study), I still wanted to celebrate it. I couldn't hide my happiness no matter how much I wanted to stay cool and calm, I kept grinning and smiling throughout the graduation day. That's how grateful I was and I still am. And apparently, my parents were just as excited as I did, I could see so much happiness in my mother's eyes, she's been angry a lot with me and said she doesn't care anymore about my graduation, but when the day finally came, she showed me how much she's proud and relieved that one of her children has managed to graduate college again. I'm so sorry for making you wait this long, mom, thank you for never give up on me (although you said you gave up, you never really did and always showered me with your love, I'm beyond grateful)...
Another chapter in the book has finished. It's time to write a new one. I know what I want to do, I know what my dream is, and I wish I could make it happen. Everything will come at the right time, and all I need to do is pray and work hard for it. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah, I can never expressed how much I'm thankful for all the miracles You have given to my life. I'm not yet a good Muslimah and yet You never stopped showing me Your Mercy. I wish I could be someone who is beneficial for my surroundings and help them for Allah SWT sake. And thank you again to my family and friends who never give up on me no matter how messed up I was. You have no idea how much your help means to me. Once again, I'm beyond grateful. Alhamdulillah.
