2021
Oh wow... I only wrote one post last year and it's my farewell post for Wicak 😢 It has been a year already since he passed away. I hope you are resting in peace and happiness, there, my friend!
So, how about me? Well, nothing much has changed except that this year, I finally stepped out of my hikikomori life. I got a job, a real one which required me to go outside of my house and be in the office from 8 AM to 5 PM. It was one of the biggest decisions I made and I am grateful that at this age, I still got the opportunity to work. Although it was super hard to get used to the new environment and new people due to my anxiety, I even had mild depression during the first month I started working which I tried so hard to hide, but I think I get better little by little. My new colleague is one of the kindest persons I've met and she's a Taurus like me, and we happened to graduate from the same uni. She is one year older than me and another funny coincidence is, she was a classmate of my ex-boyfriend. The world is small indeed 😂
As we all already know, in 2020, the world has to face and still continue to face the pandemic of covid-19 to this day. I'm genuinely grateful that I still get the opportunity to work amid this pandemic. Allah is so kind to me and I'm not sure if I deserved it or not. I just want to support my family, that's all.
What else? Ah right... My big brother got married this year as well so I finally got a sister after being the only daughter between two sons for 29 years. And my sister-in-law is super kind and very friendly too, she is like the total opposite of my brother lol. I mean, my brother is friendly but my sister-in-law is on another level of friendly 😂
To be honest, I'm still not sure what I want to aim for in life. What is my goal exactly? I just know that once my brother married, then I should be ready to take care of my family fully. Of course my brother still helps from time to time, but both me and my mom agree not to bother him with things at home as much as we can. So that's what pushed me to finally stop my hikikomori life and start living a better life. I don't know if I'm doing any better though. I have a fixed income each month now and that's good, but this is a contract job so I will eventually have to look for a new job again sometime in the future like a year or 4 years from now (if the contract got extended). I know it's still a long way to go but I can't help but think about it. Oh well... Let's just try to save as much money as we can until the day comes and worry about it later.
I hope this pandemic will be over and the world will be healed soon. Take care of yourself, wear a mask and carry hand sanitizer everywhere you go, be careful and be mindful of everything to make sure that you or the people you love will be safe from this virus. Stay safe 💗
PS: I changed my blog username after years. I like my name a lot so I kinda want to put it in everything I have now hehe.
